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Friday, April 25, 2014 | 11:14 PM

Now I live in a world that I feel I belong no where.

In class, I used to be that little girl who everyone will take care of and loves. With a mistake I've made in the past, I got my 'punishment' now. I was with a group of friends, one of which claims that I'm princess-y which means I'm like a spoilt bitch, who have a princess attitude. From then I've changed, others claim that I'm no longer one princess, I've changed for the better... But this particular human, she told anyone who can't get along with me or I can't get along with that I have a princess attitude. As they were already against me they'll listen to her and be brainwashed that I really am one. I'm fine with that, because if they were my true friends they would have known me better than that particular human. At least this human help me realize my truly true best friend. What upset me was she told everyone she is close with that I'm a princess. Now everyone doesn't like me, ya they are totally insignificant to me but I'm a girl who minds a lot of what people think of me, it kills me to know someone dislike me. I'm a student and I spend most of my time in class, a class with everyone who dislike me.Wow this isn't an easy life for me.

Now its nearing to examination, and being the outcasted one, I feel the competition around me, everyone wants to be better than me, everyone wants to watch me fall, everyone wants to see me suffer... And I feel so pressurized. I don't know what to do. Even when I've tried my hardest sometimes its just not good enough for anyone, this is not going to be easy, but I'm really trying, can I make it for O levels? Can I do well, to the standard I and others have for me?

At home, when I talk about me, no one listen. When I don't, they claim I'm keeping it to myself. For me, the first time I share something with someone and the person make me feel I shouldn't have shared, I wouldn't do it the second time. That's why I'm not talking at home as well.

In school I don't belong, I don't speak up. At home, I can't speak.

My life now is just keeping it in. Back to the old Serene. (:

Alright this is by me for now. Goodnight.

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Friday, April 25, 2014 | 11:14 PM

Now I live in a world that I feel I belong no where.

In class, I used to be that little girl who everyone will take care of and loves. With a mistake I've made in the past, I got my 'punishment' now. I was with a group of friends, one of which claims that I'm princess-y which means I'm like a spoilt bitch, who have a princess attitude. From then I've changed, others claim that I'm no longer one princess, I've changed for the better... But this particular human, she told anyone who can't get along with me or I can't get along with that I have a princess attitude. As they were already against me they'll listen to her and be brainwashed that I really am one. I'm fine with that, because if they were my true friends they would have known me better than that particular human. At least this human help me realize my truly true best friend. What upset me was she told everyone she is close with that I'm a princess. Now everyone doesn't like me, ya they are totally insignificant to me but I'm a girl who minds a lot of what people think of me, it kills me to know someone dislike me. I'm a student and I spend most of my time in class, a class with everyone who dislike me.Wow this isn't an easy life for me.

Now its nearing to examination, and being the outcasted one, I feel the competition around me, everyone wants to be better than me, everyone wants to watch me fall, everyone wants to see me suffer... And I feel so pressurized. I don't know what to do. Even when I've tried my hardest sometimes its just not good enough for anyone, this is not going to be easy, but I'm really trying, can I make it for O levels? Can I do well, to the standard I and others have for me?

At home, when I talk about me, no one listen. When I don't, they claim I'm keeping it to myself. For me, the first time I share something with someone and the person make me feel I shouldn't have shared, I wouldn't do it the second time. That's why I'm not talking at home as well.

In school I don't belong, I don't speak up. At home, I can't speak.

My life now is just keeping it in. Back to the old Serene. (:

Alright this is by me for now. Goodnight.

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